Step 2

[Leadfoot]

Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.

[Leadfoot]

At first this was a step that I didn't read too well and understand.
The way I read it was that I was to come to believe in a Power Greater than Myself and that that power could relieve my alcoholism.
Meaning that I had to believe first. Once I believed I could move on. So we experimented with rocks, trees and doorknobs.
I guess the thing I needed to know is that I didn't have to understand this power at all. I didn't have to concern myself with the Who, What , When, Where or Why. All I reaslly needed to know was there is a God and I'm not it. The rest would come to me as time went on. All I had to do is believe that a Power Greater than Myself was at work.
But I wasn't insane! There was nothing wrong with me. I was normal in every sense of the word. Sure I drank. So what if drank more than everyone else. Sure it caused me a lot of trouble. I was a victim of circumstances. Just the wrong place at the wrong time. It was just rotten luck.
Looking at the legal definition of "Insanity" I can see the whole story. At least now I can.

mental illness of such a severe nature that a person cannot distinguish fantasy from reality, cannot conduct her/his affairs due to psychosis, or is subject to uncontrollable impulsive behavior.

Dang, that's scary!
"Illness"? Where have I heard that?
"Uncontrollable" I've heard that somewhere too.
Insanity is what kept me drinking even though I knew I was powerless. Even though the outcome of my drinking had almost never went well something kept telling me that this time would be the time I could drink with dignity. That's all I ever wanted to do.
So there, I had no choice, no control. So "Insanity" doesn't mean I belong in a Nuthouse. It never did.
Maybe I could ask God to help me. Even though I didn't understand God yet I could believe that Just Maybe.